11.07.26 entry from my hideous journal it's almost 1am I sleepnow

"I was thinking about my midterm and damn I forgot what day that was for a second but it was Wednesday. I curse my social anxiety away. It's ruining my would-be human experience but now I'm really just an alien in disguise. Blessing or a curse... I'm meant for something more. I hate the struggle."

Alien in an alien world

 

  I feel like an alien who is always waiting for the mothership to finally arrive 

and swish me up to my true home. ….but it never comes and I’m just stuck on this world completely alien to me. 

I could be a shooting star in the sky right now! I SHOULD be.

sketchbook page 07.19.26

 

A sort of automatic drawing & writing of sorts...

Writing reads:

"I need to let loose then let go because otherwise where will I end up? I need to become the wave."

"I can't let every minuscule needle prick me and become pins in my heels. Digging them out is still too much effort; instead, I'll simply reflect."

"What is in sight when your eyes are shut?"

"water fall... I'll make the water rise one day" ..... "one day, same day, the present is ever-lasting and around us"

"I am an alien stuck in a human body waiting to shed my skin"

"I go back to where I came from forever ago. A dream nearly forgotten in mere seconds upon wake yet something still lies there, waiting to be fully known"

2 am ramblings

the owl follows me everywhere

https://www.gemmablackshaw.com/exhibitions/housekeeper-cathie-pilkington-at-the-freud-museum-london-2025-2026

I was looking up famous art colleges and discovered the teachers' and staff's websites to see what people in such positions create and post. I found an archive of exhibitions, and this strange owl-woman figurine caught my interest. This is at the Freud Museum in London. I would love to have odd creations like this in my house.

Will be updating more owl finds over time.

My Art Selling Journey (so far.....)

 I created my Etsy account, AlisonsArtUS, a little over a year ago in the early months of 2025. I listed a few prints, but never finalized them or even posted about them because of fear and insecurity. My biggest worry was shipping. What if my art got damaged or lost? I never shipped art prints before. My dad has experience with shipping different items, and he's thankfully helping me out. I am just a person filled with plenty of self-doubt. 

As of May 27 of 2026, I currently have 10 active listings, 5 admirers, and 1 sale! 

I sold one ACEO called "Polka Dot Pensiveness," a mini art card I drew using alcohol marker and acrylic marker. I was grateful when I got a good review; I knew my girl made it to her new home safely! <3

Support my Etsy shop at https://alisonsartus.etsy.com ! Thank you so much <3

Thought I heard a UFO but it was just my neighbor's electric car :|

     One night, I was convinced a UFO landed in my front yard. I heard a strange whirring sound, almost like music. I didn't check because I was too comfy in bed. I was also a teensy bit scared. However, I then heard the same sound in the daytime and went to check- all I saw was my neighbor backing up into their driveway. I realized the "UFO" I heard was just an electric car. I was disappointed, but remembered most things have a logical explanation of sorts, which I find boring. Well, MOST things. Though, what if aliens disguise their UFO to SOUND like an electric car on purpose...? Think about it...

An oreo a day keeps the doctor away

 Take me to the au where instead of an apple a day it’s an oreo a day… imagine a reversed dimension where sweets r eaten to combat cavities. Dream land 😿